TONI CHUKWUIWU

Deep down in my soul, I feel for you, I know my mind and body does too. It's a painful process when you loose a mother, It doesn't matter how close you are to her. I can remember when my mother went through her phase, then I was way younger than I am now, her mom wasn't the best of persons to me and I'm sure she wasn't the best of mother to her either, I was looking at her pass through those grieving time and I was wondering why she was so hard on herself, I could still remember what she said to me, "You won't understand, a mother is a mother, doesn't matter how good or bad she is". I am indeed sorry for your loss, its a phase I don't wish on anyone. I would do anything to make you feel better, I wish you are reading this, I hope it makes you feel better. I don't normally want to write and you know it but my heart grew heavy when I heard it, I want to articulate it better by penning it down. Sometimes life doesn't give it all to the bes...

Sometimes that silence is good for you. Weigh in on it, sleep on it if you have to but don't let it resort to loneliness.  We're humans, we crave madly, we desire deeply, we may or may not get what we want. We sometimes get this selfish thinking that the people who don't want us back, the way we want them, will meet their Waterloo, I don't believe in Karma, I just know that whatever will meet you, will meet you, whether good or bad, depending on when God allows it. I try to fixate my mind on the fact that God won't give me the events that I can't handle. That's what keeps me going, I have turned down people in the past and never looked back, what they wished on me doesn't matter and likewise what I thought I should wish on those who turned me down doesn't matter. We mustn't get whatever we desire and that's why I try not to waste much time trying to chase what's not realistic.  Life might be long but time flies, a billion second on earth ...

You will walk thru fire 🔥 to make sure you keep your end of the bargain, you will even go extra distance to make sure its easier for them to keep theirs. All they need to do is just readjust their schedule & prioritize you, if not for the love but for the effort put in. They won't. They apologise for their incompetence,  you let go, you go again, they do it again blud! You wont try it again, never again, how long will you keep doing it over and over again. There is no gain. Run away from people who requires much sacrifice from you yet has none to give. Get away from folks who do not place more value on you above their own things as you, them. If you dont run, they will ruin you, maybe not just your emotions but they will run you straight to the ground. Fix up.

I have a nark for noting down random thoughts that crosses my mind. My mind works in multiple segments, I have thoughts compartmentalised, I have my future, money, abroad plans, my career and last and most importantly, family. Sometimes I feel alone, not because I'm lonely but because at that very minute there is just someone that can fill that void, it's not just anyone, it is a specific person. I am someone who value a personalised relationship, if I feel something for you or we have something, you should be ready to give back exactly that same energy and commitment level I am dishing to you or even more. Sometimes we like people more than they like us, it's the realisation that differentiates us from other people, for me it is the realisation that the energy I dish out is not being reciprocated that makes me unique. I have had girls love me but I don't share the same feelings, so I understand what it means to be on the receiving end of love that you don't intend ...

I know most of you love to ship me of as being bougie and I'm loving the experience of being termed what I'm not 😂🙄 but growing up, we didn't have anything yet we were comfortable,  i didnt plan too big but i could only dream, made me to grow up without a broke mindset, right now, you can never catch me broke, im getting there. I've got an advice for anyone that cares to think deep.Get yourself a girl child that is always happy, it simply tells you she comes from a happy comfortable family. She will have little or no negative energy to dish, it will help you in your acquaintance, especially during the talking stage. Marriage will be bliss, you will have happy and relatable in-laws and your children will thank you. But you see all those bitter ladies, always with hot takes, contradictory rejoinders and "hard to get mentality", you should run from em. You have nothing to prove, they are not the trophies you wanna win trust me, they will sweat you for nothing...

The Accountant-general of the Federation that stole 109B, we have forgotten about him o.  The Accountant-general of Rivers State case has been swept under the carpet. Kemi Adeosun has gotten away finally. Patience Jonathan?  Those guys Government Ekpemupolo A.K.A Tompolo caught were never made known to us. Willie Obiano has finally gotten away and outcome of his investigation by the EFCC unknown! Names like:  1 Abdulaziz Yari of Zamfara 2 Theodore Orji of Abia 3 Tanko Al-Makura of Nasarawa  4 Godswill Akpabio  5 Abdulfatah Ahmed of Kwara 6 Aliyu Wamakko of Sokoto 7 Ali Modu Sheriff of Borno 8 Rabiu Kwankwaso  9 Bukola Saraki 10 Bola Tinubu over asset declaration.  These guys are having their cases dormant with EFCC and I'm sure most Nigerians have even forgotten.  They were all ex governors and holders of public offices. There are some cases I would like to also remind you of: 1. N195 Billion Ma...

So I went to bank to get new notes from my plug, I was able to get N20k, came back and decided to branch the market. My intention is to make sure every big spending like Yam 🍠, Garri and Co will be by transfer then I will hibernate on the 20k as long as possible till Buhari resolves the scarcity for us as he promised. Na so I go market o, priced Yam of 3k and wanted to transfer, Atiku [my Yam customer] said he doesn't accept transfer unless I will send the POS charges, same thing happened for the Garri, ahh I thought about how I will part ways with my precious 7K new notes out of the 20k, I said No. I will simply buy Egg 🥚 of N1,000 for egg sauce then subsequently, I will eat out and do transfer, then I will start paying all my friends visit 😄 till cash is restored. Wait for it... Ladies and Gentlemen, I kid you not, see egg I bought 10 for N1,000 👇🏽 Apparently, 1 tini thing like this cost N100... 🤧😭😭 Buhari na 😭 can you see you're a failure?

Let me tell you a story. Wait, hear me out, I know most of the best brains 🧠 in the country have failed you and you are probably still disappointed [that is if you're still not basking in the foolery] but I graduated summa cum laude in Economics and I was very enthusiastic and ardent while a student so I cannot make this stuff up. I was having a tete-a-tete with my mom over the phone and I was enlightening her on what the new policy is all about. I first heard what she has to say which of course is a compendium of all your opinions out there, talking about that the new policy is to curb vote buying, apprehension of kidnappers and other fraudulent individuals out there and the least to bring in many unbanked individuals into the system [this one here is the truth but was never the intent] Like I said, hear me out I'm coming to ice the cake 🎂, you will surely like my baking. So, I was a banker [I doubt many of you know that] I was a relationship manager or what you ...