HEART ❤ BREAK

Ladies and gentlemen behold the moment has come, I type with heaviness in my chest and with a shaky hands, with bruised ego, low morale and a bitter taste in my mouth.

People, good people, what you all keep saying has happened, I want to share my tiny experience.

I lay awake in my bed, wide awake, my heart kept beating like it is going to blow out from my rib cage, I kept wondering, was I too harsh, I kept hating myself for going too soft, I kept asking why I don't have alternatives, why focus on one case that keeps making me sweat through the cold, laugh through the pain and hide from the crowd. I didn't know the answers to my current predicament, I was pissed at myself, I was trying to get over my situation, worst is that I was worried if I was wrong, I was heart broken 💔. 

I used to like myself, I'm a shrewd personality, I'm a calculative person, very assertive, very intentional, I still like myself, heck, those qualities are not gone, just that I can't apply them to help myself, why can't I help myself, I am heart broken 💔. 

I woke up this morning, thinking about how scanty my sleep was, I took the decisions that I will end things abruptly, I acted on that decision based on impulse, I took action, wiped my phone with everything that will bring the memory, I adjusted my mood and positioned my mind to what lies ahead, I am never doing this nonsense again. I gave in my best and it wasn't working, I refused to see that it is not working, I kept trying to change the part that wasn't working but in all these, I was walking alone, I was trying to fix things myself, I was doing it with complaints and gradually it became a nag, I was disturbed and I still can't leave it alone because I was mad into it, I was inlove and now I am heartbroken.